The purpose of life
A question that puzzles me when I am idle or silent or meditating.
You have been through lot of ups and downs. Been through many emotions. Have career, source of income, a good family. Now what?
Living in the moment. We are all doing it while engrossed in a movie, doing gym, deep authentic work, having sex, long drives, fighting with your dear ones, having family to gather over a meal (with your phone taken away of course)
Whenever and wherever your mind is fully engrossed in 1 activity, you are living the moment. But have you evolved?
Let’s explore further.
Turn religious? Turn in to a monk?
Neither appealed me although some of it helps you evolve for sure to a higher orbit.
Why no monk? Because I have not seen monks (religious) question much on why they are doing what they are doing?
I have been through a wrong tunnel of spirituality so probably my mind is conflicted or biased already but I don’t want to enter another tunnel assuming there would be a light at the end of it.
What if the tunnel remained dark and the light at the end of it was just a fallacy? (mean that you never see any light but assume you are in light).
Probably not the best example (not biased against monk hood or becoming a saint, just a line of thought) but all the ones who took monk hood without experiencing all bondages, attachments, inclinations of life have entered the tunnel ahead of time and the tunnel has no occurrences of abnormal activities. How does one assume freedom from sex without experiencing it? How does one experience freedom from taste of Pani Puri? Your taste buds haven’t changed, their response to taste hasn’t changed but you abstain from it. A good way is to abstain but the measure of it does not hold 100%.
Here I would like to quote Osho for one of his talks on attraction or attachment to sex. He says go fully into it and then when you realise there was no outcome that liberates you. Although it sounds legit, what if this was also a tunnel and your attachment never ends? Still better than not going through it.
In the end, it’s a choice. Does the result matter, it does because of the limited time you got here. You don’t do anything before and after it so this is the only time.
What’s your choice?
Even having no choice is okay but you have to become aware and realise the chaos in your mind. Trying to find answers is the first step but not having any questions is just repeating your yesterday on an ongoing basis. Again nothing right, nothing wrong because in those also you are living some incredible moments some feeling of victory, some feeling of loss, some feeling of vulnerability.
The point is you have to become aware of these feelings. And this is my choice at the moment. I don’t want to jump off the cliff without being aware of the rough edges or planes or feelings of falling down and getting back up.
Maybe I am afraid or being careful. But I want to go through it all and then see either the fullness or futility of it.
What’s your choice or way?
